Well.......

I had an interesting day yesterday. First though, thanks Debs, Chrissy and KC for your words of encouragement. I was feeling really alone and knowing I can count on my friends helps so much. Thanks to yesterday, Scott is finally coming around too.

I had an appointment with the doc yesterday at 2:30. Normally I go in, the nurse does her thing, BP, weight yada yada, and then wait for anywhere from 15 to 45 minutes for the doctor to come in. NOT yesterday. The nurse walked out, I picked up a magazine and got to all of page 2 when Dr. F comes in.

"How are you feeling?" He asks.
"Not good. I can't keep my glucose under control, I'm depressed and I've had a headache since Sunday that I can't get rid of." I reply.
"It's no wonder," he says as he picks up the BP cuff and proceeds to take my BP again, and then he does it yet again.

Yippee for me, my blood pressure was 148/110! He wanted to know if I was under any stress. My life stressful? I started laughing and then crying. I had a total meltdown right there in the doctor's office! After he got me calmed down he wanted to admit me to the hospital but you know me, I refused. I didn't know what time Scott would be home from work and I couldn't get in touch with him and I didn't know if David had taken his keys with him.

We spent quite a bit of time talking and he told me to quit stressing over the sugar. I know what to do and I'm doing it, the rest is just a matter of getting the medication right. I'm now on it twice a day. He also told me to avoid stress and put me on meds for the BP. In the end, he did let me come home after it came down 12 points. Of course I have to go back next week.

I told Scott what happened when he got home and I think it scared him. He called me about 4 times today to check on me and then helped me make dinner when he got home. I'm feeling a bit better today, though the meds have me moving is slow motion a bit. It'll just take time to get used to them I guess.